awaking is happening , a transistion



four a couple weeks I  have been growing higher with my insight  . This will be hard to explain , but i want to try my best

It  all started with detox  bath and it  has carried on to amazing healing energy of my body.

I dream in color electric pulse surging through my body . when I look out side I see the ground dancing . I've  have been coming closer to  cleaning, purging and detoxing  my body mind and soul  in a bath after purging . 

The shapes I see designs shapes and letters on   the walls, in the sky and empty spaces of my mind . These are just a few of the things happening . These are great things to be going through but its not the meaning full of transition to me. Its the Emotion cleaning and purging that is transitioning me .

I've been in root healing for several years . nothing ever like this before . I'm doing some down to the raw exposed healing soul.

I'm healing my five year old broken heart daddy died issues  , 

I'm healing my locked in the dark no more  teenager self and me in the now . I'm happy to report she is home and is being loved .  My soul is starting to feel lighter , between the bouts of true life love  fun happy  days and  victories over shutting down , not going crazy bye  the taunting voices in my head  and last my not least  healing and  purging my soul.

Each day no matter how hard the day is I seem to wake up better . I feel a live when I wake up excited to learn from the dreams I had the night . I feel alive and healthy . I wonder how come to , especially after a day like to  today. early I had a heart ripping, tare me apart, no more hero daddy night of thoughts healing my demons. I purged it all out now I feel better . I can't explain it I wished I could . All I can say is I have pretty  gentle  guides who ease me into it. They are  keeping my mind sane so that I can continue on this amazing awaking of transition . I don't know where this will take me but I got a pretty good I deal.

The words self love have a new meaning for me . To nurture your hurt self is not for the week of heart and one  should use cautions when doing so . and if you aren't prepared for the answers maybe should think twice before proceeding Example:

like   When I talked to my teenage self.  I asked why after all the healing I've done for you , do you still hurt .  what she said  to me "you never did love me again" (profound I'm her to say  Eyes wide open)  . I searched for the ways to heal her hurt but  I never did find that perfect song . during the search  thoughts came about my daddy . it was not pretty to see him has a monster, not a real bad monster ,but a human one . It hurt I cried, I thought surely I was going to die . I called for my papa Grand dad who heals all pain . lets just say my soul set free and purged it all out . The truth nothing but the truth will set you free  .

I'm a suicidal broken heart lover and I found the link to that obsession  . I set me free with this and I'm hoping this will change my suicidal ways . I can only pray . In the end my daddy I always put on pedestal has a hero . suddenly I seen him has a flesh in blood man . a human being who makes mistakes . We all have shame and hurt some one . We all paid the price for are mothers and father's foot prints they gave us . and the last thing I learned about my father was I still love him .

when the healing  was over I had the strange feeling of emotions to laugh why I don't know .

was it to move pass the shame  hurt and disappointment  . or was it a victory for my wounded soul . that we healed a death threat upon my soul .

I'll guess I'll never know .

When awaking comes you never know what it will bring . You can't even begin to ask .I thought transition I was going to become some one else Her name is Ra my future self .


a warrior
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my transition at the beginning he called me a frog a toad .
I must say I was very offended until I knew what it meant .
Frog Meanings and Symbolism

When the frog jumps into your life it may indicate now is a time to find opportunities in transition. We see animal symbolism of transition with the frog in its unique growth cycle. The frog undergoes incredible transformations to reach the destination of full adulthood, and so do we as humans.
The frog understands what it is like to undergo some serious growing pains - and so it is a fantastic animal totem for teenagers as they sometimes struggle to find their place (in-betwix youth and adulthood) in society.
In many cultures the primary symbolic meaning of frogs deals with fertility. This is largely because these cultures observed Frogs laying enormous quantities of eggs, therefore making it a fertility symbol as well as a symbol of abundance.
A quick-list for anima
l symbolism of the frog is a good place to start as you connect with this amazing creature.

My whole life I claimed was a healer of my soul  and now I know the true meaning of healing The AWAKING OF TRANSITION. I'm very excited to see what else will unfold of my demons . and will I continue to be strong and carry on .

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